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Have you ever been told you are not human?

A couple of years ago I was outside my house leaning against the side of the building. It was 2-3am and I was staring up at the full/semi full moon thinking how beautiful it looked and how nice the night seemed in general. I then got a feeling that I was being watched. It came from my right, in the dark/pitch black part of my neighbors house, I felt whatever was there coming closer and closer to me. I started to become afraid, and suddenly words popped into my head, seemingly out of nowhere. “You are not human”, they said, and I cant quite explain it, but I know that these weren't my own thoughts, it was foreign and unexpected. I bolted from there and ran as quickly as I could back to my house, I locked the door once inside and hid in my room under the covers, feeling quite shaken from the whole thing.

I didn't think much of this event after, until recently. When I found this site this was one of the past strange events I remembered happening to me. I a short while ago attempted to reach the Akashik Library through my mind, willing myself there (as I read about on here at one point). I dont know if I succeeded or not, but in my minds eye I found a book with my name on it, and after I oppened it, the only thing I clearly remember was that saying from long ago, like an echo, “You are not human”…

So now I wonder, well, if I am not human (if I choose to believe these quite random and strange occurences), then what the heck am I? Which now I am wondering, maybe I am a reincarnated faerie? Or perhaps some other being from another place or time, because while I am human now, I dont feel connected to them.I have always viewed people as different to me, hard to understand and interact with. I never quite have known how to act around others, and learned most of my social skills from watching and imitating (used to be a very quiet and to myself kid, but at the same time extremely loving and kind, a happy and innocent soul that was more at home with nature then trying to make friends with others outside of family).

I am a rather emotional person, easily hurt and upset, and have a hard time understanding how other human beings can be so cruel at times.

I have had a great interest and connection with the supernatural and anything that represented it, especially the topic of magick, which I always couldnt resist looking unto from an early age.

I always have always liked really pretty and or shiny things, which was my obsession with crystals and wanting to collect them since I was a child, but never being able to before because my parents wouldnt let me.

I love to draw and look at pictures/statues of winged beings, multiple winged beings the ones that I find the most beauty in.

I also always felt my body didn't reflect my soul or personality, I never looked the way I felt, and no its not a gender thing or an attractive thing (I am perfectly fine/confortable with my gender and many people find me attractive), but I feel like the person in the mirror is someone else, better suited to be someone else, not me….in general I dont feel like the real my is what everyone sees, whats on the outside has never been what is in the inside, and ive had that feeling since I was at least 5 years old from what I remember.

I was born through C-Section a bit past my due time but right when my mothers water broke, the hospital being located pratically in the middle of the woods surrounded by large trees and wildlife (can you say best place for faeries to inhabit if exploring our world?)

I also love to sing, always have, and music is a large part of me. I was considered gifted in many aspects, looks, intelligence, quick ability to learn. My uncle once called me perfect (which is laughable, no such thing as perfect). My parents always telling me god blessed me in many ways.

(Couple of other things I could think of/mention but this thing is already long enough lol)

So who knows, maybe I do have the soul of something from far away. All I know is if that is true, then thanks to that I find myself feeling quite out of place a majority of the time, heh x3 .

I dont feel connected to them.I have always viewed people as different to me, hard to understand and interact with. I never quite have known how to act around others, and learned most of my social skills from watching and imitating (used to be a very quiet and to myself kid, but at the same time extremely loving and kind, a happy and innocent soul that was more at home with nature then trying to make friends with others outside of family).

I am a rather emotional person, easily hurt and upset, and have a hard time understanding how other human beings can be so cruel at times.

I have had a great interest and connection with the supernatural and anything that represented it, especially the topic of magick, which I always couldnt resist looking unto from an early age.

I also always felt my body didn't reflect my soul or personality, I feel like the person in the mirror is someone else, better suited to be someone else, not me….in general I dont feel like the real my is what everyone sees, whats on the outside has never been what is in the inside, and ive had that feeling since I was at least 5 years old from what I remember.

And here is the perfect description of me…

Lisa A.- Grey Eyes said:

Id have to agree- that you could be someone from another realm or even a star person–  incarnated as a human for a particular reason.    One of those reasons could be for your own further spiritual growth that can only be learned in a dense human body.  As you start experiencing the sufferings of life, and your body starts to break down over time, you will also be growing spiritually from any hardships experienced with  THAT as well-     Seems this Earth is a sort of Boot Camp for spiritual growth that can only be experienced by living a grounded life

I agree! I'd look into the topic of Starseeds, just to see how you compare. And, try to rule out anything else you may not be before narrowing it down into what you might be — this is how I prefer to do things, because it's easier for me to see what does not fit than what does, especially in relation to myself because the "fitting pieces" — even if they are strange to others — are completely normal to me and thus harder to separate.

 I would highly reccomend reading Doreen Virtue's Realms of the Earth Angels.