Real Fairies

I might be fae or elven soul or maybe angel soul or dragon i dunno. funny I always thought i was human. its kind of like im in denial dont ask me why i dunno i just like being human. anyways i came to me eppiphany i remember Jaylene saying lf you feel like a blacksheep maybe your fae or elven. I just noticed I do.my family thinks im insane. at least im happy and dont cause negativity like some people ik. and another thing elves/fae are sensitive race im very sensitive like if your voice is cold towards me i start tearing up.when i person dies and ik even when its someone i dont know i cry horriblly. I like feeling trees.I  used tp play with them when I was younger and kept the leaves the tree gave me in a book. i have trouble saying no thats an angel trait. in meditation i visit dragons and i feel close to them so i wonder if my soul can be a dragon not that it is a dragon. another thing negativity always tries to bring me down perhaps they know of greatness i could do and how much i love the old man they always try to make me deny him and do harm onto mysel but i just hold him tighter. cause if i deny him then my soul feels lonely. I had a reading done with my angels with a trusted friend they said i have angelic feutures. and that im special [of course i think they say to all the people they take care of still made me feel special], just thought i should add that,srry went off topic. so what do you guys think?

TaraR said:

iris i actually do feel you are lol, like when other people post and their like “yeah… im a fae!!!!!!!!!!:P:P:P:P:P<3″ im like pshh yeah right, but with you what you said actually fits.

hmm then maybe i should stop being in denial

I feel like a black sheep when the real world is concerned. ^^

I don't see how having a stressful job to get money to survive is attractive. D=

It disgusts me! =3=

Yes…eventually, I will have to get over being socially awkward and be miserable in the real world. -sighs-

I fear that since I am not easy to motivate…well, the fae motivate me to be nice to insects and they even motivated me to change my personality a bit! =)

However, no one can motivate me to go out and get a job. Go out a learn how to drive. Go out and go back to school.

I fear that I will be living on the streets in the future while trying to fend for myself. D=

I have social anxiety disorder and so you can imagine how tough it will be for me to be part of the real world…=3=''

CloverDew said:

I feel like a black sheep when the real world is concerned. ^^

I don't see how having a stressful job to get money to survive is attractive. D=

It disgusts me! =3=

Yes…eventually, I will have to get over being socially awkward and be miserable in the real world. -sighs-

I fear that since I am not easy to motivate…well, the fae motivate me to be nice to insects and they even motivated me to change my personality a bit! =)

However, no one can motivate me to go out and get a job. Go out a learn how to drive. Go out and go back to school.

I fear that I will be living on the streets in the future while trying to fend for myself. D=

I have social anxiety disorder and so you can imagine how tough it will be for me to be part of the real world…=3=''

Hi !   what helped me was to start out in baby steps.    I had social anxiety all of my life too when I was in gradeschool and highschool.     I took a  year off after highschool and just stayed home.  Then staying home was just getting too “old” and  my parents were starting to get a little annoyed with me being home and not working or going to college.   Soo- my first baby step was to work at our local public library for less than part time hours at less-than minimum wage.

I knew how to drive, but didnt have my own car- so my mother drove me to work and back.   Then I went part time to a local Commmunity College (which was alot cheaper than a regular 4 year college and you can transfer the credits to a large college.)    So I continued to work less than part time in our public library then went to college a few hours a day.    

I ended up getting my  secretarial certificate and a 2 year journalism degree at the Community College- and that helped me to get a full time clerical position with an insurance company full time.     After that I was able to afford my first car ever–  and my grandmother came with me when I bought the car.  

So it all didnt happen at once- but in baby steps.   

Don't let the future discourage you-  do things a little at a time now to reach your goals

hugs

Lisa

chicanarocio said:

so any thoughts on what can my soul be?

hi !   chicanarocio,  I dont' have any insight on it–  but I do remember  you saying how your grandmother or mother could see auras and was able to see two wings in your aura!     I would not be surprsed if you are incarnated from a dragon,  elf or faery either-      having that kind of connection with trees as a child is a big clue right there that you have some kind of prevoius connection to Nature before you were born.

Hugs

Lisa

I am afraid of going back to school because I feel like I might end up leaving again and my parents would be the ones that pay. D=

I want to be a cryptozoologist but there are no schools for that since it is not a paying career unless you are part of some documentary or whatever. =/

There are classes that will help with it but no official classes for it. <.<

I want to volunteer somewhere until I decide to go back…it is better than sitting on my bum all day doing nothing. x3

I just do not want to be around a lot of people. D=

i say sorry a lot.

CloverDew said:

I do not distance myself from them. D=

I have just been through a lot in the past that has caused me to make it difficult for me to warm up to people. =/

I get nervous around new people and that makes me come off as cold and stuck up when I am really not. -sighs-

The scars are still here but I have improved a lot but apparently not enough.

aww. I understand that and if  u ever need totalk im here

I can't keep eye contact with strangers either, but I think it was more the way I was raised, don't stare at people!!  So if strangers look at me I quickly avert my eyes. I think it makes me look nervous and snobbish.  Its really strange, the way you are raised really affects what person you become! I guess we have the power to change that though once we become adults.

chicanarocio said:

hmm ty i still have to ponder about this

You could still be an angel and   meet up with dragons and also feel a connection with trees you know.

Don't rule out the Angel possiblity!