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i've had a very emotionally draining but incredible week and i thought i would share some of it with you as i am aware many of you would be interested in my experience. Three months ago my father died tragically. I had been living in a daze not really facing my emotions very well and venting up a lot of anger, dispair and grief. it all came to a head last weekwhen i finally found the courage to talk to my father out loud about how lost i was and i needed to know he was around supporting me and my brother and sisters. what started as a kind of speaking my mind, became an emotionally charged cry for help from him. I was alone in the house except for my Fathers Dog who was fast asleep and when through my tears i asked him if he could hear me, the dog jumped out of a deep sleep and started barking at the air right beside me and seemed to follow something i could not see accross the room. I told my dad that i could not see him but that i hoped this meant he was there and that he would listen. at that point the dog barked again looking just behind me. she started getting a little agitated so i went to put her outside and when i reached the terrace door a computer speaker just beside the door turned itself on and a loud static noise came out from the speakers. i nearly collapsed with the shock but quickly examined the computer to see that it was indeed switched off and not in sleep/ screensaver mode. i know for a fact that the speakers are nearly never on, as we all use headphones when on the computer which is in the main living space. i then calmly turned off the speakers and thatnked dad for letting me know he was here for me. i asked him to stay close for the next while as my family are in serious turmoil and i need help to support them. He has stayed close and i sense him around whenever i need him and he has gone out of his way to show me he is there. One such example was yesterday i was out with my partner for a walk and as we passed an outdoor market with a flower stall the owner ran after me and called me back he gave me a bunch of yellow roses and said they were a gift for me, smiled at me and walked back to his stall without looking for payment. Tears welled up in my eyes as these roses were identical to those on the yellow rose tree my father planted in our back garden when i was a baby and i used to play under the bush as a toddler. . when we overhauled the back garden Dad and i replanted the rose bush in the front garden together. The bush is still there and is as old as i am and there are many photos of me with the bush over the years

To me it is an amazing comfort to know that he is happy and still looking out for his baby girl even though im over thirty. It has helped to ease the pain of his passing and to finally reaffirm what i have always belived, that there is an afterlife…and that we are surrounded by those who have loved us.

Hope this helps brighten your day.

This post almost brought me to tears. It must be so reassuring to have these experiences and I am so happy you were able to. It certainly gives me hope that those I have lost are infact watching over me.

Amazing…just…amazing…