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I'd really love to be able to spill my guts out about my one darkest secret that none of my in real life friends and family knows (but my step dad did catch me going into mystical websites anyway and got a parental ban for all that stuff)

As all of you know from my intro page, I practice magick, and am into spiritual matters. Plus now that I am all out hardcore fairy believer, I don't think my urge to break the code of silence can hold very long.

I still hate the fact that my step dad cringe at the sight of anything he thinks is "evil" or "rubbish". It always leaves me in the state of stammering and not knowing how to fight back for my right. The parental controls drive me up the wall because it is so irrational (which is also why I'm using another computer at the moment) that even a harmless movie site can be blocked e.e My mom, although she isn't as bad as my dad, still dislike the fact I'm into these things. I don't know how to explain myself, I'm always at a loss for words.

They also don't know about me going into this site, for that matter. I wish I could just get off their roof and start college life soon, so I can have all the freedom I get, but yet I'm afraid that I'll become homesick and then run back under the roof with the same old rules, and the same code of silence.

Friends. We love having them either fairy or human. My problem here is that I'm itching, as in, REALLY itching to tell at least one person that I practice magick or that I'm into fairies. The last time I tried doing that with another metaphysical belief, things didn't go too well. But then, AAHHHHH! The temptation is killing me! Should I still keep everything to myself and then implode or just reveal it gradually?

I'm so sorry Moonfire :( I know exactly how that is, and to be honest it isn't as simple as just going away to college. It seems to be the older you get the more crazy it sounds lol. Since you practice magick, why not try a spell to draw a friend with simillar interests to you? Sometimes people are really closeted about their belief and interest in the subject of fairies and magick for fear of being labeled as immature or crazy.

If you get a chance to get on another computer any time soon, try this site: http://www.witchvox.com/

It's a sort of networking site for pagans and it may help you find out if there are people in your area who are interested in magick. How old are you? I think you have to be 16 to use Witchvox, and please be careful of any strangers you meet like you would on MySpace or Facebook, if you decide to use it.

Well I would suggest that you not mention your beliefs unless u know your friends are open to the subject. If they are real close friends, you will probably know if they are open. Otherwise, you might be in an awkward situation. Funny thing is, most of my friends don't believe this stuff. And I tell them sometimes, just to check how open they are, then we crack a few jokes and usually forget it. Personally, i don't care lol. They may someday, or may not, be open to the subject but o well. I like my friends for what they are. If they don't believe, don't mean we can't be close. Another thing, once in a while, i'll meet a random person, and randomly start having conversations about things that are normally considered “crazy.”  Things like Aliens, Faeries, other dimensions, and 2012 is common one.  Most of these people, i'll never see again! So I think that your personal close friends don't necessarily have to know u believe in Fae, if they are not open. But you will eventually run into people with similar beliefs and then u can have nice long conversations!

O and I tell my family about lot of things only because they think im crazy. haha. Im glad they do cus now I can say whatever I want and they don't care. I'm the black sheep of my family. They know it, I know it, and at the very least, i can get some laughs out of them. So you could take that approach. It might sink into them eventually that there is more out there then they know. Thats my hope. Just keep it light-hearted, and not so serious. Someday they will experience more realities as the veil becomes thinner. And I know they will have to turn to me for some explanation since I'm the only one would have a clue. I can't imagine my mom seeing a Faerie! ahahaha. o maan, that'll be a day to remember. 

So my general advice is, if you want to start telling people about your beliefs, keep it light and humorous, and don't tell all your beliefs in one instant. That will surely be an unpredictable situation.

A minor update:

I have revealed my secret to one of my friends, but it's the one to do with magick but not fairies, yet. I felt an intense guilt as soon as I told her. I first expected that it would be like a burden lifted off my shoulders, now it's like an extra burden added. Golly gosh, I don't know where am I headed to now…Any advice would be helpful, cheers…

SirZachary said:

Moonfire said:

I'd really love to be able to spill my guts out about my one darkest secret that none of my in real life friends and family knows (but my step dad did catch me going into mystical websites anyway and got a parental ban for all that stuff)

As all of you know from my intro page, I practice magick, and am into spiritual matters. Plus now that I am all out hardcore fairy believer, I don't think my urge to break the code of silence can hold very long.

I still hate the fact that my step dad cringe at the sight of anything he thinks is “evil” or “rubbish”. It always leaves me in the state of stammering and not knowing how to fight back for my right. The parental controls drive me up the wall because it is so irrational (which is also why I'm using another computer at the moment) that even a harmless movie site can be blocked e.e My mom, although she isn't as bad as my dad, still dislike the fact I'm into these things. I don't know how to explain myself, I'm always at a loss for words.

They also don't know about me going into this site, for that matter. I wish I could just get off their roof and start college life soon, so I can have all the freedom I get, but yet I'm afraid that I'll become homesick and then run back under the roof with the same old rules, and the same code of silence.

Friends. We love having them either fairy or human. My problem here is that I'm itching, as in, REALLY itching to tell at least one person that I practice magick or that I'm into fairies. The last time I tried doing that with another metaphysical belief, things didn't go too well. But then, AAHHHHH! The temptation is killing me! Should I still keep everything to myself and then implode or just reveal it gradually?

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Funny how when I post a similair thread I get scolded by witchy.

eh? When did I scold you? I'm sorry if anything I said offended you. Everything I say I do not intend it to be mean or hurtful. All forgiven?

well you guys, for what it's worth- I never believed in faeries for the longest time–  and I'm a Christian so if someone wouuld mention faeries to me around before May 31, 2008, I would have thought the person was mentally unstable and not taken them seriously.

I never believe in trying to convince anyone of anything–this goes for my Christian faith, as well as ghosts, faeries, angels,  psychic ablities,etc.     I guess one good thing that was instilled in me from my church and family at a young age is never to push anything on anyone –we all are on seperate parts of the path and need to go through our own life experiences to bring us further along the path.   We can't have people pushing us forward with a broomstick.

How I became more open to the fact faeries could possibly exist was by chatting with two wonderful Native American women who had thier own faery experiences–  and about that time I had already been attuned to Reiki and was seeking a deeper closer more intimate walk with God.    God opened my heart to be more open-minded on His own,   No human could do that for me.

After being touched in my heart by those Native American women–  I presented my confusion about if faeries existed to a Christian guy I met from Germany– (who in his former life was some type of playboy who was only interested in making money and obtaining luxuries–then his whole life took a conversion, and now he is helping homeless folks, etc)    Well this guy told me, "Why don't you just put the matter in God's hands and ask Himto reveal what is the truth or not.'  

So that led me to put the matter in God's hands about faeries– and I remember walking along our roadside in April 2008  enjoying the beauty of Nature and recalling the experiences my Native American friends had with these elusive faery Beings.         I asked God that afternoon while walking to let me someday meet one of His "Nature Guardians".     One month later after horrible family argument in our home–   that following May 31, 2008 morning, I was in our bathroom very despondent– daydreaming in sections of my hair in the morning sunlight- when  the veil was temporary lifted for me-     I suddenly noticed a small female faery Being (very exquisite!)  looking at me with total empathy and compassion while she was peeking at me through a section of my hair.     I looked in shock and I studied her beautiful face completely.    She eventually realized I was gawking at her and she dissappeared, but when I left that bathroom, my whole life changed–  joy and Magic came into my life –and here before this, like so many other Christians, was putting our Creator into a Box and limiting Him on what is out there– on what other Intelligent Beings are out there He also created besides humans…  who also share this planet with us.     

Let me tell you it has really made me into a Nature girl-  I am in love with trees and recognize that they are all conscoius Beings with souls just as all of us are.-  I dont tell anyone at work or my church.  They are all good people, on thier own seperate spiritual paths-  and I don't feel this is the time in thier lives right now to discover more truths-    Eventually –maybe after this life, and in another life, or out of thier body, they will eventually see when they are ready.  I'ts not for me to slam my truth I discovered on them.   I can share with them my experience if they ever bring up the topic on faeries or other dimensions, but only if I feel they are open and are searching for more truth as I was when I first chatted with those wonderful Native American friends!