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Hi everyone I haven’t been on in a while but I’m back and sorry this is such a long post but I really need to get this out there and fast before I change my mind.

I don’t know how to say this I haven’t told anyone about it and the more time that passes its harder. However I can’t keep it in any longer and now that the time for me to move to Maine is upon me I just need someone other than my mind to explain to me if what has happen to me is real or just my over active imagination.

It started since I was very young I could see stuff other people couldn’t things that scared me but I have always been used to this because seeing ghost/spirits has been in my family line from the side of my mother. From her blood line there have been several witches that we know of from both sides her father and mother and maybe more that we don’t. So that isn’t what surprised me it was all the other stuff. I have always believed in fairies for no reason it’s almost as if I knew them from memories of my past. This is weird but its true ever since I was small there was one thought that I always carried with me. it was the knowledge that I would be gone from this world when I reached the age of 17 or 18 that at that age I would finally go to the place I have always belong to. That by then I would have seen and learned everything I came to this world for. So I was very young when I started feeling I didn’t belong here that I wasn’t supposed to be here that I wasn’t like everyone else (this is from as far back as I can go but deep inside me I know that there are things in my childhood that were blocked from my reach because I can’t seem to remember parts of my memories). I only told one girl about the part that I would leave this world by that time but she didn’t understand me and when I tried to tell one of my teachers because she believes in things like this she gave me a look that told me she clearly didn’t believe me so I changed the subject and haven’t tried ever since.

I have always seen things and thought things differently than others around me and more when I was small. So I didn’t have friends my first year of school (kindergarten) I was the outcast of the class. so that year I spent mostly all my recess sitting against one tree in particular it was I think the biggest one in the school grounds and from it I remember feeling protected and that I could actually speak to it but the weirdest thing from those memories is that every time I try to remember what I did when I was sitting there I can only remember that when I leaned my head back on the tree I closed my eyes and then it’s all (blank) that part after it until I open my eyes again when recess is over and I know I just came back from some where I want to stay in.  Another memory when I was even younger and in daycare was of a day when ladybugs were everywhere and everyone had one except me but I didn’t want just any ladybug for some reason I felt there was one out there I had to find. There was a electric thing surrounded by a fence but inside that fence there was also a bush growing and there were so many ladybugs there; however we weren’t supposed to get near it but I’ve never followed rules so I went to it and reached in even when the only girl that talked to me there was telling me not do it. The part after that I can’t seem to remember I only remember that when I took my hand out there was a huge ladybug in my hand it was the size of a nickel or in between a nickel and a quarter (unusual for a ladybug). I felt at that instant so close to it as if I knew it and I wanted to take it home but the teachers didn’t let us take any insects inside so I went to hide it under the sand in a tunnel and I was speaking to it as if it was a person telling it to wait for me that I would be back to take it home. I couldn’t go back and when I did it wasn’t there anymore. No one believed me about that ladybug and I didn’t show it to the teachers only the kids so it was like I was a crazy little girl to every adult.

Time passed and one day I just felt that I had to look through my dad’s coins the once he had collected as a kid. I had seen these coins a hundred times because I had grown with them but as I looked through them that time one coin caught my attention. It was almost as if it was calling to me so I reached for it and what surprised me was that I hadn’t seen it before and it’s not small it’s bigger than a quarter so it’s almost impossible to not notice it anyway on one side it has the seven pointed star and an eye in the middle, in between the points of the star there are different things like a sword for danger, and hourglass for destine etc. then there is a circle going around the star that has the names of gemstones and then the zodiac signs. On the other side there’s a sun in the middle then surrounding it there are signs that I don’t know what they are and surrounding that are the lucky signs like an elephant, dice, the moon and the world, the four leaf clover and a lot more. It was like a protection pendant I believe because the part where the necklace went is broken but still it was really odd how it all happened and that I had the seven pointed star. I tried to find information about that star but I couldn’t find any in the internet or anywhere so I gave up. One day as I browsed the internet I came upon a website that talked said the seven pointed star was the star of the fairies  after that I found many more websites that said the same thing. I couldn’t believe it after so long I had finally found what that star meant. It was almost as if someone hadn’t let me find anything about the star before then because it was waiting for the right time. Another things like that happened with a necklace in the shape of a leaf that I fell in love with at the store its beautiful but no one bought it and when I did I got it at 2 dollars or less. After I bought it and had it for a while I realized it had the first letter of my name in the decoration that made it look like a leaf. That was surprising.

When things started to get really out there was when I turned fifteen and I had a dream of a girl looking for a green little man. I asked her if he was an elf and she said he was so I told her that I hadn’t but if she found him or them if she could tell him to tell all the other fairies that I was waiting for them that I was ready. After that dream I started to have a lot more dreams about them and in every dream they always tried to take me away to their world but for some reason or another they never could. In mostly all of them I wanted to go with them but in some there was one elf that frightened me. He was always in the shadows and he also wanted to take me with him but in those dreams I was always running away. I’ve always believed that they never could take me away because my house is surrounded by an iron fence well the front part so may be that was the reason or I was still missing something from this world that I had to obtain whether it is knowledge or an object. I’ve had a lot of dreams of me being an elf, a fairy and if I remember right other types of fairies. I also had a dream that stayed with me till this day about an elf woman getting me ready for a ceremony or something like that and then after that a male elf was taking me with him to his world and he was telling me something important about myself but I woke up when he was finally going to tell me why he was after me.  I always had dreams like these ones more when it was getting close to Halloween or May eve. Throughout the years I have had many of these dreams and I still do once in a while but one time I had a dream that some I think elves told my mom she was half elf and for that reason she could cross the veil. In my dream it hit suddenly hit me that I was also half elf and for that reason everything was happening. No I don’t believe I’m an elf or a fairy maybe I was in my past lives but I don’t see anything of me right now that would make me say I’m an elf  or a fairy (It’s a nice thought but I think I’m completely human right now).

Well I went to see a school in Maine this May and I’ve already read the forum of Maine and heard the scary sounds that they recorded over there (that freaks me out a little bit) but I loved it over there and I’m going to college over there the 27. Anyhow when we went are flight was canceled the one to finally arrive at Portland Me so we stayed at the airport and another lady stayed with us. During the night we never exchanged names until the next morning and from the millions of names in this planet hers had to be Hadas in Spanish it means fairies so we were very surprised my mom and me. Well we arrived at our destination after a long day of trying to get another plain to Portland and then drive to the school in the middle of the forest. I was tired and depressed for not sleeping well and I asked the fairies if they could please give me the clearest sign if it was for me to come to this college and to make it so clear because I was a stupid human that needed things to slap me across the face and I went to sleep. Well the next morning when we went to the school I was a little out of it like there and not there so as they gave as our tour of the school we were taken to one of the first buildings of the school. I was alright as we walked down the hall but the farther we walked I was entering more and more into a haze. When we passed some doors I completely went out of it and my mind suddenly froze or went into another place because what happened at that moment I didn’t even realize it until my mom and our tour guy told me. I love bat so I don’t think they are a bad sign at all. They told me that the moment I crossed the door a bat came down from the ceiling and started flying above my head and then went down the hall and came back to fly more above my head. After it did that it went down the hall hovered and at that moment I came back when I heard the tour guy say he couldn’t believe it, that it was a bat and that how was that possible at that time of day (10 am). So I came back and I turned to where it had stopped at the end of the hall under the stairs to go to the second floor and was hovering, I stared at it still not realizing what was actually going on and after I looked at it flew up the stairs. Our tour guy was actually kind of trying to calm us but there was nothing to calm and my mom told him that I loved bat. What snapped me out of my trance was what he said after that and I quote his exact words “Then this is a sign to come to this college”. At that moment I knew that was the sign the fairies had sent me to answer my question. So for that reason I am now packing to go over there.

So my questions are these

            Could the fairies be the once behind all of this even from my childhood?

            Could they have blocked my memories or done something so it would be harder for me to reach them?

            Why could a 5 or 6 year old have had the mentality that their human life would end by the age of 17 or 18 when she never heard it from anywhere else or even read it because I didn’t read books at all at that age?

Could, me telling the girl to tell the fairies that I was ready be actually the reason of why they suddenly started coming to almost all of my dreams?

 What would be the reason for so many fairies to come to my dreams to want to take me to their world?

What other types of fairies live in Maine? (Please I want to be more prepared for when I go over there)

Sorry this was a long post but please help me by giving me your wisdom or thoughts about what you think and please if you can answer these questions that would help me a lot.

Merraid

sorry i didnt know where to put this feel free to move it, if it doesnt go here

The summons is a ride ain't it.  Had near the same thing happen to me in March this year and I had it happen when I was living in Maine.  Hang on your in for a rocket ride.  Just get your bum up there and settled.

Yea the fairies ( Sidhe ) are behind it.

 Maine has a large popuation as most of it is heavily wooded and the only sizable human population are localized in Bangor and Portland. Everything in the book is there and a few besides. They have designated communities on Monhegan island something I just found out about recently I've not been to Monhegan personally though I know a few people from there. There's another island which I can't remember the name of that also has a designated community.

I wrote you a private message to help you get in touch with people locally.  . Just hang loose most of your questions will be answered I'm sure.  I know this is confusing and they aint exactly subtle about their approach when they want something. But don't worry it will be good you just  tag right along with the procession there and they'll take good care of you.

Hi Merraid,

I also have large memory lapses not just from my childhood but from every stage of my life up to now and im in my thirties. For a while it frightened me not to be able to remember but i used to day dream all the time extremely lucid day dreams. I belive now that it was something more than daydreams. i think i was escaping mentally from the "real world", i am beginning to realise that a lot of the times i have memory lapses were during hectic or traumatic times in my life and perhaps this was a way of coping.

Many people can sense the future, not as a defined path that you have to follow and cant change but everyone knows thier own charicter and can feel how that strength of charicter will affect the way they live thier life. perhaps what you feel is being confused slightly. It is very possible that what you feel will happen at 17 /18 is not impending death or the end of this life, but it is that a defining change will happen at this age. Perhaps that means that you will become "of age" as most humasn do at this time and be more aware of the Fae part of you. This awarness will seperate you from the rest of humanity but will draw you toward thos who are like you.

From what i have read on thi ssite dream are an excellent way to cimmunicate with the fae, and if you told them in your dreams that you were ready to accept them then this probbably did pull down a physcic barrier between you both so that they can now communicate through your dreams.

It seems that everything around you is helping to guide you in the right direction so just embrace it and live without fear. Your seem very belessed. Good luck in your new college. Danu

Well  , just think.  Why would all of that happened , if it was fake?  Think of the chances of that happening to somebody else. Try to think of how the world would have been if this was fake. The creator would'nt make a world that we we're so alone.

Thank you everyone for reading and posting to try to help me  oh and  also not judging me like if I was a lunatic.

it’s been hard to keep this in for so long and more after I promised the fairies I wouldn’t tell anyone about them after they completely left my dreams for a while but I hope they don’t get more mad at me because I’m finally saying all of this. Before my promise I tried to tell my mom and aunt but things didn’t go well and more because my mom hates the fact that I’m interested in magic and things like that and that I have almost the same gift as her of seeing things others cant like ghosts and the future through my dreams.

Like it scared her she somehow believes its bad and for that she hates that I have such a great passion for it. Also it’s hard when your mom tells you that no one believes you of what you’ve seen and that everyone sees you as a joke (that happened this January and after that for a while I completely blocked myself I hadn’t been getting a lot of dreams with the fairies lately but when that happened they just stopped completely. things got worse after that because I felt hollow like if part of me had left like if I was an empty shell that it was horrible). Ever since I went to Maine this May and got those signs I’ve started to get involved with the fairies again I don’t get that many dreams of them but I know they’re there watching me.

Sairahiniel

Thank you for posting.

Well it wasn’t like yours because when I was that age my mom was always working so the only time she saw me was when she woke me up to take me to daycare or school and when she picked me up and then put me to sleep. Also my grandmother when she took care of me had to take care of my little bro and my cousin too that she didn’t pay attention if there was anything happening with me. However in school I was sent to talk with some psychologist because my teachers did find weird stuff with me like that I got distracted really fast that I was always in my world and that when they read I would at first be paying a lot of attention but suddenly I would drift away and when the teacher finished she would wave her had in front of my face or snap her fingers and I wouldn’t come back. Another thing my mom told her my aunt Ramona that worked in the school asked her why was I always so sad and that reminded me that I was very scared of the cafeteria in my first school so I never ate and that’s when I would go sit against the big tree.

Bluefirephoenix

Hi and thank you for everything you’ve been a big help.

As soon as I get settled in college I’ll go and see those places because I do need winter and rain clothes and thank you again about for the messages. Yes, you’re right they are defiantly now subtle about their approach and I hope that when I get to Maine I’ll find out what they really want with me.

Danann

I also daydream a lot that’s why I’m such a danger on wheels well driving. I find that I daydream during anytime of my life but sometimes I can’t even figure out what I  was daydreaming when I come back.

I think your right because I’m 18 right now and I’m finally going to leave my home town so maybe that’s it. I always wanted to get away from here and not to sound mean or anything but finally after wishing it so much I am. However a day of my graduation I almost died because a centipede crawled over my feet and those insects here are very dangerous. I don’t know how come it didn’t sting me when it could of done it in less than a second and today my mom had a dream that she heard my uncles talking that my grandmother had not much time to live but she always dreams things that are going to happened with other people than with the ones it’s going to happen too and she has been dreaming about me a lot lately but they’re just dreams (although I hope it’s just a dream and nothing happens to my grandmother or me).

Yeah I maybe when I did tell that girl to tell them that did happen but I still don’t understand why the dreams are always of them wanting to take me away. So I do wonder if under my words there was other meaning also.

I do hope that I am going on the right direction and thank you very much.

Fairiesdancingonthebreeze

I have started to make a fairy house and I’m trying to hurry because time is passing so fast I want to finish it before I leave. I like the sound of bribing them and I will start to go on walks when I get to Maine but like Bluefirephoenix said I need to be very careful because I could get lost so I think that when I start I’ll get a walking buddy at least in the beginning so I won’t be alone if I do get lost.  Yeah I want to ask my grandmother and my grandfather about our family history and if they know anything else about the witches or the second sight my mom and I have. Oh and I’m glad it made your day that actually make me very happy that you do believe me.

Merraid

When I was smaller, not as young as you, but about seven or eight, I was absoloutely convinced that I was different from everyone else, that some day i was going to do something big and important that would change everything. I have mostly lost that, but I am now wiccan,  and now I understand a lot of things that most people don't. Your experiences are quite out of the ordinary. Ever since I was little I have been able to  see everything in a different perspective, like see myself walking sown the hall, and I know that I can feel what other people are feeling if I try. If i look at someone, I sometimes feel exactly what they are feeling, and sometimes even thinking about using my gift (wow, only just now did i consider it as a gift) It will hit me like a big wave of feeling. If you see my post y thing topic whatever, its in the introduce yourself part and it's about hearing strange music sometimes. I can speak with spirits, and I have had dreams where my dead mother talks to me. My dreams are very strange and psychic, and I get de ja vu a very lot, and sometimes, I even know what's going to happen. Sometimes I will be just standing around and my vision will cloud over, my head will feel heavy, I cant think, and a shot of pain goes into all my muscles and then I go limp. I can usually feel it coming to I will grab something before I fall, but usually I recover like nothing ever happened. When I pray to the higher being, my prayers come true and it's like they know me, and I, them. Also, some times, my mind will start racing and racing and time will feel strange and lucid and other times everything will go very slowly and everything else seems to go very, very fast. it's quite odd. But, I think I understand how you feel.

I’ll have to make a fairy house over there for sure. I’m almost finished with the one I’m making right now so I’m really happy. I’ll post some pics soon.

Bluefirephoenix I love your house it’s coming out great and I’m sure the fairies will love it too. I’ll be going over there the 27 of this month.

devinrollman

A lot of the things that have happen to u I’ve also experience like the walking down the hall, and feeling what others are feeling. I also have vision dreams which I sometimes don’t like because I dreamed my aunt would lose her baby and she lost it the next day, I dreamed my dog was going to be run over and a month or two  later he did, I dreamed an angel wanted to talk to my teacher that his brother was going to die that was on march I think and he died in November; however I’ve also have had really good dreams like the one of how many puppies my dog would have, the ones of when my family members get pregnant and if they’re having a girl or boy but they are mostly always bad ones. What you wrote of how time feels strange and lucid and all of that I’ve  felt that way once it happened in my English class and I saw something like a fog with colorful lights coming out from the wall and crossing the room to go out through the other wall it was really intense. My teacher even noticed something happened but he didn’t tell me anything only looked at me weird.

It’s really cool that you can talk to your mom and that you can hear that music I’ve never talked to any spirits the once that I saw when I was little weren’t good.  That’s good that when you pray you feel that way and that they come true.

Lisa A.- Grey Eyes

I believe your right maybe I had to do some stuff without them. The only times I’ve seen them has been my junior yr in my English class and my sophomore year as I walked with my class to another building and no one else seemed to see it but me (it was like a big white puffy ball that seemed to shine as it flouted over everyone.

Yeah maybe that might be true that they don’t want me to get too attached and I have always felt like I am just passing through here. I do hope I reconnect with them because after they gave me those signs of going to Maine I haven’t been able to remember my dreams almost at all and I feel they left again. I’m really afraid they are mad at me.

And thank you a lot for praying for me.

Mermaid

oh yea that female time of month thing. REALLY screws me up too.